Wednesday, August 13, 2008

My Clock Is Broken...

Do you ever feel like there is not enough time? I am sure we all do. Lately it has been really affecting me though. We are in the process of moving and things have gone from being busy to absolutely insane! It feels like I have a full time job already with parenting the girls, taking care of the house and on top of all of that, I am trying to find a part time job.

My husband and I decided that I would need to work part time to bring in some supplemental income since we were moving into our new home. When it was finally decided that this was the path to go and our offer on the home was accepted, I went into turbocharge trying to find a job. I would love a work at home opportunity like the millions of other stay at home Moms out there and I do have experience working from home in my last full time job (I couldn't work at home full time though.) So, that is definitely an option and I have been regularly cruising and researching every lead out there.

One time, I had created a list of 12 possible opportunities. I diligently started researching and pursuing all of them. It was getting crazy as to which ones I had applied to, who I needed to test with and what in the world is that all about? (These were the ones that I didn't remember doing.) Plus on top of all of this, I decided to blog.

I was spending most of my days baby wrangling, cooking, cleaning, blogging, cruising for jobs, doing errands, packing up boxes, and very little relaxing with hubby, enjoying my kids and well, sleeping!

Then I hit a brick wall. I can't do it all. I am tired. I don't want to put one more thing on my plate. In fact, I wanted to lighten my plate. So, I prioritized every aspect of my life. I have my bible study and time with God that is an absolute must. I am usually good about keeping up with this, but have been struggling with staying present in my studies. So, I have to work constantly to stay focused on His word and not think about the million of "to do's" that I have waiting for me. When it comes to my family, I am always here for them. I will enjoy my ability to stay home with them and relish in the fact that I get to see their most important moments unfold before my eyes. Everything else will fall into place. The right opportunity for part time income will present itself and I will know it.

So instead of frantically eyeing the clock worried that I won't be able to get the girls' diapers changed, drop my entrecards, make dinner, call the utility company, write new post or pack up that next box, I am going to cuddle my babies.

So, see ya later, I am busy being a Mom the rest of the day.


Helene said...

What a wonderful post! Sometimes I too get wrapped up in the day to day stuff that I miss out on some really good opportunities to play with my kids. I try so hard to get everything done and I finally realize it can't be done. So I've stopped being so anal about the housework...the housework will still be there for me to do, but playing outside in the sprinklers with my kids is definitely a good reason to put it aside!!

twinmama said...

You are so right! And I fall victim to the guilt of the laundry piling up or the vacuuming that needs to be done. It really doesn't matter when the kids are growing up before my eyes - I don't want to miss it.

Lisa C. said...

My clock is broken too!!!! lol I also try and prioritize the day, but some time I just have to say the hill with it all.. Mommy time.. My girls are 9months now and I still can;t figure where they went.. I must have blinked..

Mayet said...

there are also times that I want to do it all in a day, but it just not easy!